I like to cook a lot of different things. It's fun to experiment, and I love all different types of cuisine. So it's kind of whatever smells good at the farmer's market is what I take home and try. Just know that vegetables will be involved, and no preservatives.
I wasn't sure if you wanted to hear from me. After I told you about Foggy, neither of us reached out. I thought you might have wanted space. I'm sorry if that was wrong.
You're such a Hallmark kinda guy, did you know that? [She huffs out a quiet laugh.] Good catholic boy, with a degree, helping people, going to the farmer's market and cooking. Like, men writen by women.
[Without realizing it, Kate shakes her head.]
I was thinking the same thing. He was your best friend. I didn't know what to say, I was just kinda hoping I'll see you around at night but then you stopped showing up. And I can't blame you, you were dealing with a lot.
And to think I was raised by men. One who definitely never watched Hallmark a day in his life.
[The very thought of Stick though putting on that channel amuses Matt.]
It was a screwed up time for all of us. Just glad that it wasn't screwed up permanently. And even though the city is shit right now, I'm also glad that you're still here. It's going to get better again. It has to.
Fisk wasn't always in office, and he won't always be in office. There are some shitty officials but there are also some good ones, too. The city won't ever be perfect, no, but it can be better than it is now. It does matter that each serial killer is put away, because that does make things safer. Even if it doesn't mean all crime will stop forever.
What we do matters. And the city is worth fighting for, always.
[And yet, as optimistic and bubbly as Kate normally is, she suddenly seems to deflate. She hides her face in her palms, scrubbing it roughly as she groans.
But a soft ring coming from upstairs makes her straighten up again.]
[His gaze, as always, doesn't quite meet her eyes. It falls just short, drifting to the side, but his head is inclined in her direction to show she has his focus. That he hears the change in her tone.]
[For a brief moment it felt like an exit. Stepping away from this conversation and knowing he will get dressed and this will be over. The bubble is close to bursting. Back to the shit normal life has turned into.
But Matt suprises her in a way that he shouldn't. Or rather, she shouldn't be surprised that he's here, in the present, showing he cares like he used to. Kate simply shakes her head, staring into those dark eyes that are far from meeting her gaze but still make a connection.]
[It does. Surely he will notice in the way she snorts, the way the corner of her lips curve lightly into a soft smile. Kate tucks a strand of hair behind her ear.]
It feels like things keep getting worse and worse. And when things start feeling a little closer to normal, it all goes to shit again.
[Lucky, sensing his human's distress, crawls across Matt's lap to where he can rest his large, furry head on Kate's lap. Matt smiles a little at the dog's gesture. Sometimes it was so simple for a pet and so hard for a human. A lesson to take away when he's feeling less tired.
He's quiet for a moment, letting Kate's words carry the weight they deserve. He won't discount what she's saying or feeling. He gets it, as much as he wants to make it easier for her to bear as a burden.]
I know you can take anything. As you friend though, I don't want you to just survive. I want to make something go right for you if I can. And I want you to know you're not alone when things do go wrong.
[Kate's smile becomes even easier as Lucky comes over. She pets him eagerly, truly touched by how her dog senses that she's feeling down.]
I know. I know, Matt.
[And yet, the response is almost automathic. Like she wants to just drop this, for him to stop worrying. It's weird when people worry about her. She doesn't want to give anyone reasons to worry.]
My mom -- I thought I hated her. [She confesses, knowing Matt won't drop this and this is probably the one time in a long time when she'll have the chance to open up like this to someone else.]
When she was arrested, she looked at me in the eye and asked if that's what heroes do, you know? Getting their mothers arrested during Christmas. Like it was my fault, as if I had betrayed her.
[He sucks in a small breath of empathy when she talks about her mother. He can only imagine how traumatic an experience it was, and he understands what it's like to have conflicting feelings towards a parental figure.]
It wasn't, you know. It wasn't your fault, and that was terrible of her to imply otherwise.
Having our parents fall short of what we expect them to be, what they should be, is never easy. That you had to be the one to stand against her isn't something that most people would have been able to do. I'm sorry that you had to.
I know she was being unfair. And I thought I hated her for it. For what she's done. [People had died because of Eleanor's actions, sometimes because she thought she was protecting Kate by doing that. Hell, she had put a price on Clint's head. Had framed her fiánce. Her mother deserved to pay for her crimes, yes. But... Fisk had also led her down that road with a debt Eleanor had inherited from Kate's late father.
Even her dad, the dad who's memory she so adored, had disappointed Kate.]
But now, with Fisk being where he is, I can't stop worrying too, Matt.
You can hate someone and love them at the same time. Or hate someone and miss the love you used to have.
[He thinks of Stick more than his real father. Jack had certainly made mistakes, had engaged in criminal activity. Yet he'd never killed anyone, he'd never made Matt doubt his love. Stick on the other hand had loved Matt and Elektra in his way, but it had held a much more toxic edge to it. They'd been tools for a cause that Stick would always put first. Matt's feelings towards the dead man were complicated, so he can understand some of what Kate's feeling towards her mother. Hadn't he tried to help Stick at the end, despite it all?
He doesn't want Kate to have to grieve like he did in failing to manage it.]
Is she being held at Riker's? If you didn't want to talk to her, I could arrange a meeting. See how she's holding up. Or Kirsten could do it, if you don't want my name near hers right now. Hell, even Cherry might have some contacts at the prison who could keep an eye out.
[For a moment, Kate says nothing. She seems focused on massaging her dog's head, his ears. Learning every curve and angle of his face as she's seen Matt do once. Lucky stays still, seemingly enjoying the attention. Or taking it, knowing it sooths his human.]
I don't know if I want her to know I'm worried.
[It's probably a horrible thing to do, punish her mother like that. With silence. But right now that's the best Kate can offer. Doubt.]
Do you really think Cherry could keep an eye on her? I'll pay him.
[Matt gives a look in her general direction at the mention of money before shaking his head.]
I think he probably has some contacts so he can pull in a favor to keep an eye out, yeah. Only stipulation is that you're not paying for it. You're a friend, so I got this. He's on my payroll already, so it's not an extra charge. I'll call him as soon as I put on some pants. Getting a little breezy here.
[For a moment, Kate says nothing, the shoe dropping as she realizes that this is really happening. That the thing that's been bothering her for months is finally being taken care of. As much as she worried about talking to someone about it, it had been worth it after all.]
Yeah, sorry! [Carefully, she nudges Lucky to get off her lap.] I'll go get your clothes.
[But before she gets up, she finds herself hesitating. Finally, she takes his hand, giving it a light squeeze.] Thank you.
[He does. He knows where the washing machine is, he's heard it.]
... Yeah. Yeah, okay.
[The second Matt is off, Lucky takes the chance to claim his spot on the couch, curling next to Kate and resting his head on her lap. Kate smiles down at him as she pets him, whispering as she speaks, almost barely mouthing her words.]
That's good, isn't it? [Suddenly, hope reaches her heart again.]
[Matt manages to find the washing machine, the sound and the heat signature guiding him. He risks it by changing right then and there in the laundry room rather than going back to the bathroom. The clothing is dry and warm, smelling a whole lot better. He rests her bathrobe on top of the washer and heads back to the living area after.]
I left your bathrobe in the washroom in case you wanted to clean it. And it seems like someone took my place. [He smiles a little, sensing the dog.] You snooze you lose, huh?
[Kate trusts her washing machine. Many times it has saved some of her clothes despite of how her knowledge is reduced to YouTube tutorials when it comes to getting rid of certain stains. It's still a relief to see Matt return with no signs of human waste on his outfit.
He surprises her, as he doesn't show any signs of wanting to leave straight away, her heart beating with delight.]
He is shameless like that. [And yet, Lucky wags his tail lazily as Kate scoots them both to make room for Matt.] How's that feel? Not freezing your butt anymore?
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I wasn't sure if you wanted to hear from me. After I told you about Foggy, neither of us reached out. I thought you might have wanted space. I'm sorry if that was wrong.
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[Without realizing it, Kate shakes her head.]
I was thinking the same thing. He was your best friend. I didn't know what to say, I was just kinda hoping I'll see you around at night but then you stopped showing up. And I can't blame you, you were dealing with a lot.
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[The very thought of Stick though putting on that channel amuses Matt.]
It was a screwed up time for all of us. Just glad that it wasn't screwed up permanently. And even though the city is shit right now, I'm also glad that you're still here. It's going to get better again. It has to.
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[Kate reaches for her coffee, really needing something to do with her hands. Something else to focus on.]
Yeah, I mean. It's not like politics are going to completely screw our lives or like serial killers don't ever grow bored.
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What we do matters. And the city is worth fighting for, always.
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[And yet, as optimistic and bubbly as Kate normally is, she suddenly seems to deflate. She hides her face in her palms, scrubbing it roughly as she groans.
But a soft ring coming from upstairs makes her straighten up again.]
Your clothes are ready.
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[His gaze, as always, doesn't quite meet her eyes. It falls just short, drifting to the side, but his head is inclined in her direction to show she has his focus. That he hears the change in her tone.]
What is it?
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But Matt suprises her in a way that he shouldn't. Or rather, she shouldn't be surprised that he's here, in the present, showing he cares like he used to. Kate simply shakes her head, staring into those dark eyes that are far from meeting her gaze but still make a connection.]
Everything.
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[A light joke that he hopes might create enough ease for her to talk.]
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It feels like things keep getting worse and worse. And when things start feeling a little closer to normal, it all goes to shit again.
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[He gently rests a hand on Kate's back, lightly rubbing some warmth into it.]
I won't pretend that I'm not tired, too. That some things have gone to shit in a way that can't be fixed.
I'd just hate to think there's nothing good in your life, too. Some hope of a balance with all the rest.
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Her shoulder suddenly bumps up in what's almost a stubborn half-shrug.]
It's not like there's nothing good. Or like, I can't take it. I can totally take it. I'm just-- So fucking tired of things going wrong.
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He's quiet for a moment, letting Kate's words carry the weight they deserve. He won't discount what she's saying or feeling. He gets it, as much as he wants to make it easier for her to bear as a burden.]
I know you can take anything. As you friend though, I don't want you to just survive. I want to make something go right for you if I can. And I want you to know you're not alone when things do go wrong.
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I know. I know, Matt.
[And yet, the response is almost automathic. Like she wants to just drop this, for him to stop worrying. It's weird when people worry about her. She doesn't want to give anyone reasons to worry.]
My mom -- I thought I hated her. [She confesses, knowing Matt won't drop this and this is probably the one time in a long time when she'll have the chance to open up like this to someone else.]
When she was arrested, she looked at me in the eye and asked if that's what heroes do, you know? Getting their mothers arrested during Christmas. Like it was my fault, as if I had betrayed her.
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It wasn't, you know. It wasn't your fault, and that was terrible of her to imply otherwise.
Having our parents fall short of what we expect them to be, what they should be, is never easy. That you had to be the one to stand against her isn't something that most people would have been able to do. I'm sorry that you had to.
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Even her dad, the dad who's memory she so adored, had disappointed Kate.]
But now, with Fisk being where he is, I can't stop worrying too, Matt.
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[He thinks of Stick more than his real father. Jack had certainly made mistakes, had engaged in criminal activity. Yet he'd never killed anyone, he'd never made Matt doubt his love. Stick on the other hand had loved Matt and Elektra in his way, but it had held a much more toxic edge to it. They'd been tools for a cause that Stick would always put first. Matt's feelings towards the dead man were complicated, so he can understand some of what Kate's feeling towards her mother. Hadn't he tried to help Stick at the end, despite it all?
He doesn't want Kate to have to grieve like he did in failing to manage it.]
Is she being held at Riker's? If you didn't want to talk to her, I could arrange a meeting. See how she's holding up. Or Kirsten could do it, if you don't want my name near hers right now. Hell, even Cherry might have some contacts at the prison who could keep an eye out.
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I don't know if I want her to know I'm worried.
[It's probably a horrible thing to do, punish her mother like that. With silence. But right now that's the best Kate can offer. Doubt.]
Do you really think Cherry could keep an eye on her? I'll pay him.
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I think he probably has some contacts so he can pull in a favor to keep an eye out, yeah. Only stipulation is that you're not paying for it. You're a friend, so I got this. He's on my payroll already, so it's not an extra charge. I'll call him as soon as I put on some pants. Getting a little breezy here.
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Yeah, sorry! [Carefully, she nudges Lucky to get off her lap.] I'll go get your clothes.
[But before she gets up, she finds herself hesitating. Finally, she takes his hand, giving it a light squeeze.] Thank you.
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You're welcome. And don't get up, you and Lucky seem comfortable. I got it.
[He wriggles out from under part of the dog and stands up, slowly heading for where the washing machine had been.]
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[He does. He knows where the washing machine is, he's heard it.]
... Yeah. Yeah, okay.
[The second Matt is off, Lucky takes the chance to claim his spot on the couch, curling next to Kate and resting his head on her lap. Kate smiles down at him as she pets him, whispering as she speaks, almost barely mouthing her words.]
That's good, isn't it? [Suddenly, hope reaches her heart again.]
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I left your bathrobe in the washroom in case you wanted to clean it. And it seems like someone took my place. [He smiles a little, sensing the dog.] You snooze you lose, huh?
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He surprises her, as he doesn't show any signs of wanting to leave straight away, her heart beating with delight.]
He is shameless like that. [And yet, Lucky wags his tail lazily as Kate scoots them both to make room for Matt.] How's that feel? Not freezing your butt anymore?
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[He sits down once room is made, lightly patting Lucky's rump as that's the end that's near him now.]
I know. These clothes were too clean. Gotta get some dog hair on them.
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