[Lucky, sensing his human's distress, crawls across Matt's lap to where he can rest his large, furry head on Kate's lap. Matt smiles a little at the dog's gesture. Sometimes it was so simple for a pet and so hard for a human. A lesson to take away when he's feeling less tired.
He's quiet for a moment, letting Kate's words carry the weight they deserve. He won't discount what she's saying or feeling. He gets it, as much as he wants to make it easier for her to bear as a burden.]
I know you can take anything. As you friend though, I don't want you to just survive. I want to make something go right for you if I can. And I want you to know you're not alone when things do go wrong.
[Kate's smile becomes even easier as Lucky comes over. She pets him eagerly, truly touched by how her dog senses that she's feeling down.]
I know. I know, Matt.
[And yet, the response is almost automathic. Like she wants to just drop this, for him to stop worrying. It's weird when people worry about her. She doesn't want to give anyone reasons to worry.]
My mom -- I thought I hated her. [She confesses, knowing Matt won't drop this and this is probably the one time in a long time when she'll have the chance to open up like this to someone else.]
When she was arrested, she looked at me in the eye and asked if that's what heroes do, you know? Getting their mothers arrested during Christmas. Like it was my fault, as if I had betrayed her.
[He sucks in a small breath of empathy when she talks about her mother. He can only imagine how traumatic an experience it was, and he understands what it's like to have conflicting feelings towards a parental figure.]
It wasn't, you know. It wasn't your fault, and that was terrible of her to imply otherwise.
Having our parents fall short of what we expect them to be, what they should be, is never easy. That you had to be the one to stand against her isn't something that most people would have been able to do. I'm sorry that you had to.
I know she was being unfair. And I thought I hated her for it. For what she's done. [People had died because of Eleanor's actions, sometimes because she thought she was protecting Kate by doing that. Hell, she had put a price on Clint's head. Had framed her fiánce. Her mother deserved to pay for her crimes, yes. But... Fisk had also led her down that road with a debt Eleanor had inherited from Kate's late father.
Even her dad, the dad who's memory she so adored, had disappointed Kate.]
But now, with Fisk being where he is, I can't stop worrying too, Matt.
You can hate someone and love them at the same time. Or hate someone and miss the love you used to have.
[He thinks of Stick more than his real father. Jack had certainly made mistakes, had engaged in criminal activity. Yet he'd never killed anyone, he'd never made Matt doubt his love. Stick on the other hand had loved Matt and Elektra in his way, but it had held a much more toxic edge to it. They'd been tools for a cause that Stick would always put first. Matt's feelings towards the dead man were complicated, so he can understand some of what Kate's feeling towards her mother. Hadn't he tried to help Stick at the end, despite it all?
He doesn't want Kate to have to grieve like he did in failing to manage it.]
Is she being held at Riker's? If you didn't want to talk to her, I could arrange a meeting. See how she's holding up. Or Kirsten could do it, if you don't want my name near hers right now. Hell, even Cherry might have some contacts at the prison who could keep an eye out.
[For a moment, Kate says nothing. She seems focused on massaging her dog's head, his ears. Learning every curve and angle of his face as she's seen Matt do once. Lucky stays still, seemingly enjoying the attention. Or taking it, knowing it sooths his human.]
I don't know if I want her to know I'm worried.
[It's probably a horrible thing to do, punish her mother like that. With silence. But right now that's the best Kate can offer. Doubt.]
Do you really think Cherry could keep an eye on her? I'll pay him.
[Matt gives a look in her general direction at the mention of money before shaking his head.]
I think he probably has some contacts so he can pull in a favor to keep an eye out, yeah. Only stipulation is that you're not paying for it. You're a friend, so I got this. He's on my payroll already, so it's not an extra charge. I'll call him as soon as I put on some pants. Getting a little breezy here.
[For a moment, Kate says nothing, the shoe dropping as she realizes that this is really happening. That the thing that's been bothering her for months is finally being taken care of. As much as she worried about talking to someone about it, it had been worth it after all.]
Yeah, sorry! [Carefully, she nudges Lucky to get off her lap.] I'll go get your clothes.
[But before she gets up, she finds herself hesitating. Finally, she takes his hand, giving it a light squeeze.] Thank you.
[He does. He knows where the washing machine is, he's heard it.]
... Yeah. Yeah, okay.
[The second Matt is off, Lucky takes the chance to claim his spot on the couch, curling next to Kate and resting his head on her lap. Kate smiles down at him as she pets him, whispering as she speaks, almost barely mouthing her words.]
That's good, isn't it? [Suddenly, hope reaches her heart again.]
[Matt manages to find the washing machine, the sound and the heat signature guiding him. He risks it by changing right then and there in the laundry room rather than going back to the bathroom. The clothing is dry and warm, smelling a whole lot better. He rests her bathrobe on top of the washer and heads back to the living area after.]
I left your bathrobe in the washroom in case you wanted to clean it. And it seems like someone took my place. [He smiles a little, sensing the dog.] You snooze you lose, huh?
[Kate trusts her washing machine. Many times it has saved some of her clothes despite of how her knowledge is reduced to YouTube tutorials when it comes to getting rid of certain stains. It's still a relief to see Matt return with no signs of human waste on his outfit.
He surprises her, as he doesn't show any signs of wanting to leave straight away, her heart beating with delight.]
He is shameless like that. [And yet, Lucky wags his tail lazily as Kate scoots them both to make room for Matt.] How's that feel? Not freezing your butt anymore?
My regular socks don't feel like sandpaper. But I buy nice socks these days. They're just usually not warm.
It's not like having crumbs in the bed.
[He's not gonna let her live that down in turn.]
The suit isn't that bad. It's tight but flexible, so I can move pretty well in it. The worst part about it is that it can get really hot in the summer.
Okay, you can't really judge the crumbs in bed because it's freaky how sensitive you can be! [There was a barely contained laugh in her voice as she playfully shoved Matt.]
Two questions: does the back ever get between your asscheeks and, if it does, do you feel like you lose coolness points by adjusting it?
I can judge the crumbs if ants and bedbugs suddenly find a new buffet feast while you're sleeping.
[He playfully banters back, nudging her shoulder in return.]
Is this a problem you encounter and are looking for advice on how to handle? Because I don't know if there is a cool way to make that adjustment in public.
You say that as if I had wrappers of food and plates all over the mattres. [She huffs.] Wait, can you hear that kinda thing? As in, can you listen if there's bedbugs?
[That would be so disgusting.]
Damn. Guess I'll have to keep pretending I'm adjusting my quiver.
[Matt pauses, head tilted, his brow furrowed in the usual expression he gets when he's listening very intently to something. Finally he gives a little nod.]
Got a nice little colony growing in your bed. They're saying the space is nice but they want more crumb variety than pizza.
[Matt is a good actor. He has to be, considering he leads a double-life and has managed to fool most people in it. And the news he shares? The first part hit Kate with a wave of disgust. That is, until he gives more details.
Grabbing the pillow she brought in case he wanted to get some shut eye, she doesn't think twice before she smacks him on the chest with it.]
[Matt's expression twinkles with amusement and smugness, taking the pillow slap as fair retaliation and still deciding it was worth his while. Kate is always teasing and trolling him, it's nice to be able to turn it around on her sometimes.]
What? You could be their leader. They seem to share your bed eating philosophies.
[Pretending she is far more annoyed than she really is, Kate lets out a loud huff and grabs her coffee to regain some fuel.]
If I become their leader I know where I'm sending my army. You, sir? [She pokes at the side of his waist, making her way up in the hopes of reaching his armpits.] Will wake up to a bed infested with those bugs!
[Matt swiftly shifts away, because another aspect of his powers is that with his heightened sense of touch, he's extremely ticklish. He moves so that Lucky is positioned in front of him like a puppy barrier.]
My bed isn't where all the good leftovers are. They know they have a good thing going in yours.
no subject
Her shoulder suddenly bumps up in what's almost a stubborn half-shrug.]
It's not like there's nothing good. Or like, I can't take it. I can totally take it. I'm just-- So fucking tired of things going wrong.
no subject
He's quiet for a moment, letting Kate's words carry the weight they deserve. He won't discount what she's saying or feeling. He gets it, as much as he wants to make it easier for her to bear as a burden.]
I know you can take anything. As you friend though, I don't want you to just survive. I want to make something go right for you if I can. And I want you to know you're not alone when things do go wrong.
no subject
I know. I know, Matt.
[And yet, the response is almost automathic. Like she wants to just drop this, for him to stop worrying. It's weird when people worry about her. She doesn't want to give anyone reasons to worry.]
My mom -- I thought I hated her. [She confesses, knowing Matt won't drop this and this is probably the one time in a long time when she'll have the chance to open up like this to someone else.]
When she was arrested, she looked at me in the eye and asked if that's what heroes do, you know? Getting their mothers arrested during Christmas. Like it was my fault, as if I had betrayed her.
no subject
It wasn't, you know. It wasn't your fault, and that was terrible of her to imply otherwise.
Having our parents fall short of what we expect them to be, what they should be, is never easy. That you had to be the one to stand against her isn't something that most people would have been able to do. I'm sorry that you had to.
no subject
Even her dad, the dad who's memory she so adored, had disappointed Kate.]
But now, with Fisk being where he is, I can't stop worrying too, Matt.
no subject
[He thinks of Stick more than his real father. Jack had certainly made mistakes, had engaged in criminal activity. Yet he'd never killed anyone, he'd never made Matt doubt his love. Stick on the other hand had loved Matt and Elektra in his way, but it had held a much more toxic edge to it. They'd been tools for a cause that Stick would always put first. Matt's feelings towards the dead man were complicated, so he can understand some of what Kate's feeling towards her mother. Hadn't he tried to help Stick at the end, despite it all?
He doesn't want Kate to have to grieve like he did in failing to manage it.]
Is she being held at Riker's? If you didn't want to talk to her, I could arrange a meeting. See how she's holding up. Or Kirsten could do it, if you don't want my name near hers right now. Hell, even Cherry might have some contacts at the prison who could keep an eye out.
no subject
I don't know if I want her to know I'm worried.
[It's probably a horrible thing to do, punish her mother like that. With silence. But right now that's the best Kate can offer. Doubt.]
Do you really think Cherry could keep an eye on her? I'll pay him.
no subject
I think he probably has some contacts so he can pull in a favor to keep an eye out, yeah. Only stipulation is that you're not paying for it. You're a friend, so I got this. He's on my payroll already, so it's not an extra charge. I'll call him as soon as I put on some pants. Getting a little breezy here.
no subject
Yeah, sorry! [Carefully, she nudges Lucky to get off her lap.] I'll go get your clothes.
[But before she gets up, she finds herself hesitating. Finally, she takes his hand, giving it a light squeeze.] Thank you.
no subject
You're welcome. And don't get up, you and Lucky seem comfortable. I got it.
[He wriggles out from under part of the dog and stands up, slowly heading for where the washing machine had been.]
no subject
[He does. He knows where the washing machine is, he's heard it.]
... Yeah. Yeah, okay.
[The second Matt is off, Lucky takes the chance to claim his spot on the couch, curling next to Kate and resting his head on her lap. Kate smiles down at him as she pets him, whispering as she speaks, almost barely mouthing her words.]
That's good, isn't it? [Suddenly, hope reaches her heart again.]
no subject
I left your bathrobe in the washroom in case you wanted to clean it. And it seems like someone took my place. [He smiles a little, sensing the dog.] You snooze you lose, huh?
no subject
He surprises her, as he doesn't show any signs of wanting to leave straight away, her heart beating with delight.]
He is shameless like that. [And yet, Lucky wags his tail lazily as Kate scoots them both to make room for Matt.] How's that feel? Not freezing your butt anymore?
no subject
[He sits down once room is made, lightly patting Lucky's rump as that's the end that's near him now.]
I know. These clothes were too clean. Gotta get some dog hair on them.
no subject
[He's mentioned how sensitive his body can be at times. Of course, she's always going to tease him about it.
Though, she's gotta agree. Socks out of the dryer are the best.]
How do you deal with your suit? Because I gotta say, that doesn't look super comfortable.
no subject
It's not like having crumbs in the bed.
[He's not gonna let her live that down in turn.]
The suit isn't that bad. It's tight but flexible, so I can move pretty well in it. The worst part about it is that it can get really hot in the summer.
no subject
Two questions: does the back ever get between your asscheeks and, if it does, do you feel like you lose coolness points by adjusting it?
no subject
[He playfully banters back, nudging her shoulder in return.]
Is this a problem you encounter and are looking for advice on how to handle? Because I don't know if there is a cool way to make that adjustment in public.
no subject
[That would be so disgusting.]
Damn. Guess I'll have to keep pretending I'm adjusting my quiver.
no subject
Got a nice little colony growing in your bed. They're saying the space is nice but they want more crumb variety than pizza.
no subject
Grabbing the pillow she brought in case he wanted to get some shut eye, she doesn't think twice before she smacks him on the chest with it.]
Asshole! I was ready to puke in my mouth!
no subject
What? You could be their leader. They seem to share your bed eating philosophies.
no subject
If I become their leader I know where I'm sending my army. You, sir? [She pokes at the side of his waist, making her way up in the hopes of reaching his armpits.] Will wake up to a bed infested with those bugs!
no subject
My bed isn't where all the good leftovers are. They know they have a good thing going in yours.
no subject
Matt Murdock, you are ticklish! [And she sounds so triumphant as she puts her mug down.]
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)