The neon lights were how I could originally afford it. They shaved off the price because of them, but the light from them obviously doesn't keep me awake. ... I guess it does mean a lot to me. After my dad died, I didn't have a home. So when I could finally afford to make myself one, yeah, it was a pretty cool feeling.
Some of the time, of course I do. Other times I regret that I don't feel regret.
[She's probably have to cover her head with a pillow to sleep on his couch, but frankly he doesn't care. Still, Kate won't bring it up to keep Matt from worrying.] Well, it is pretty roomy. I love the stairs too, by the way. But yeah, that makes sense. Please tell me you threw a house-warming party.
[He plans on letting her use the bedroom while he takes the sofa, as he usually does when people stay over.] The stairs help with staying in shape, I'll grant that. Nah, I didn't do anything special when I moved in. I just ordered take out from Nirvana's next door and sat on my mattress to eat it because the bedframe and sofa hadn't come in yet. Did you throw a housewarming party when you moved into your apartment?
How did you pick your furniture? Did your friends help you? You had something in mind and asked for help? [She knows he won't take it personally if she asks all these questions, but she's genuinelly so curious about how the world works from his perspective.] No wonder you love that place so much. As for me, yeah. It wasn't anything crazy. More like a sleepover and lots of drinks.
Matt, nobody can blame you for that one. Anyone who loved Foggy would have done the same thing.
Foggy helped me pick things out. Design-wise, none of it really means anything to me, you know? It's not like I knew anything about styles when I lost my sight as a kid. I just said I wanted things simple, comfortable, and that it all had to be placed where I could easily move around and navigate the space. So I got to feel the items but he mostly picked them out, then I had a say in where things were placed so it made sense to me when I walked around. Which is also why an apartment is easiest, honestly. It's not a ton of space that I have to memorize.
I can absolutely see you having a party to celebrate, so I'm not surprised. I hope you had fun.
Yeah, that makes sense. Though, you have to admit that adding a slide to your apartment would have been a nice gift for your inner child. [Has she ever been tempted to get one? She'll never tell.] Wait, why you memorize it? I thought you could tell exactly where everything is.
Yeah, it was chill and a lot of fun. Just being surrounded by friends, you know?Nothing too crazy.
Of course not. But if anyone had hurt you... I bet that even Foggy would have been tempted. It's not like anyone can think straight in a time like that.
Where would the slide land? In the bed or the bath? Yeah, I memorize the steps between places, and where things are on the counters and things like that. I also have everything that I can labeled in case something does get out of order. On most days it's for the sake of appearances, but when I'm sick or injured, I'm genuinely just blind, Kate. My senses don't work as well if at all. I don't want to walk into my coffee table when I'm already not feeling well because I never bothered to count steps.
That sounds like the perfect night.
Maybe. It's complicated. If I haven't figured it out yet in twenty years, maybe it's not something that anyone ever will totally.
Oh, the options! I was thinking of something from upstairs down to the living room, but the bed sounds like such a good option. [She's never seen Matt sick before, but him explaining how that messed with his senses made so much sense.] Yeah, that's a good point. Even I bump on stuff when I'm feeling sick, bet it must be really tricky for you. [A beat.] You know, I saw this new app that kinda scans the place and tells you where things are. Maybe it would come handy with like one airpod, to let it guide you.
Is that your type of perfect night?
Exactly. You shouldn't let it eat your brain up. I don't think its the kinda question with a right or wrong answer.
Yeah. I get some people telling me that I'm not really blind or visually impaired. They don't believe me when I say that the labels and memorization and other tricks genuinely help.
A lowkey night with friends? Yeah. Is it not yours?
Probably. I don't do well with unsolved questions, as you can tell. I was taught that you have to still wrestle with them.
In their defense, Mr.Murdock, the jury should notice that nobody that ever saw you fight would believe that you can't see. As for the rest? They can suck it.
Yeah, it probably is. I... I used to think that I really loved big and improvised plans. Like, not knowing where the night will take you and oops, we just woke up in Mexico. But now? I think it's more the company thah the plans.
It's rude as hell. Besides, there's a lot of disabilities that can not be like, easily detected. That doesn't mean people don't have them. [A beat.] Someone argued about yours?
I haven't yet. I know, shocked. But it's more of an inside joke with my friends from college.
Exactly. Maybe a few people try and cheat the system but most people who are disabled aren't lying about it. I have had people argue with me in the past.
I am a little surprised, yeah. Have any of your friends done it?
I've seen it, I'm just trying to picture what that is supposed to look like in this context. I don't think I could adopt a problem-free philosophy.
Why would anyone would argue with you? That's incredible. Do they think you're just messing around with your cane?
A couple did. They even brought back sombreros and learned some real bad spanish.
I wouldn't go full into it, because extremes always suck. Maybe something closer to the whole Alcoholics Anonymous saying? The 'give me strenght to accept the things I cannot change and courage to change the things I can' deal.
The dad of one of my friends kept saying that and it always stuck with me. I only understood why once I grew up and in a way, I find it even more meaningful now. [She pauses.] But yeah, not sure if I have that kinda strenght.
It is. It makes me more angry on behalf of people who have it worse than I do and have to deal with that. Some people have no support or educational opportunities to fall back on.
Not bad, not bad.
I think for me it's that I'm too stubborn to want to embrace that wisdom. I don't want to think there are problems I can't solve.
It's something that should be taught at school. Like, people have all these preconceptions of what blindness is like, but its not the same thing to everyone of you, right? Or like, other impairments. Or even mental health. [It's extra frustrating. Because even though, yes, Matt can do so many things other visually impaired cannot, that doesn't make him any less blind. How vulnerable is he when he is sick? To think that some people judged him, on top of it... Her frustration shows in her voice.]
Thanks. I'll bow next time I see you. But, what about you?
See? That's the thing. Sometimes a girl just needs a good rant and you guys jump straight into trying to find a solution. [Hey, she can try and joke too to light up the mood.]
It's not all the same, no. There should be more education and available resources, one of many reformations the education system here desperately needs.
I'm fluent in Spanish and German, conversational in French, and know a bit of Russian. To be fair, languages come fairly easily for me.
I am entirely that person who had to learn to ask 'do you want me to listen or offer solutions' in those moments.
Maybe you should start a petition. Talk with associations. You know, if you ever have a free moment to spare in this lifetime.
... [Suddenly, at the other side of the line, Kate's jaw dropped.] You're shitting me. Really?? Don't tell me you also beat me to sign language, because I'd believe that coming from you.
At least you're aware. That's way more than what most dudes can proudly say.
I did not beat you to sign language, if you feel compelled to rush and learn it first. I vaguely remember the finger movements to sign my first name, and how to sign 'agree' and 'disagree' but that's about it.
I've had it pointed out to me. Not just by women, either. Foggy would tell me that he just wanted me to agree something sucks sometimes.
Yes! Yeah, Matt, you should totally do it. I mean, we already discussed donations to some associations. We could bring up that point during the event.
I learned a couple of things with Clint and, even if he says he's fine with his hearing aid? He's not. That thing is not always reliable in the middle of a fight.
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Date: 2025-05-08 11:01 pm (UTC)Yeah, well, not everyone has the chance to actually do something when they face people who hurt other people.
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Date: 2025-05-08 11:11 pm (UTC)Having the chance doesn't always make it right.
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Date: 2025-05-08 11:17 pm (UTC)You regret the things you do?
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Date: 2025-05-08 11:23 pm (UTC)Some of the time, of course I do. Other times I regret that I don't feel regret.
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Date: 2025-05-08 11:27 pm (UTC)... You mean the thing with Bullseye?
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Date: 2025-05-08 11:32 pm (UTC)That's one of the things, yes.
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Date: 2025-05-08 11:38 pm (UTC)Matt, nobody can blame you for that one. Anyone who loved Foggy would have done the same thing.
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Date: 2025-05-09 12:21 am (UTC)I can absolutely see you having a party to celebrate, so I'm not surprised. I hope you had fun.
Foggy wouldn't have wanted me to kill anyone.
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Date: 2025-05-10 09:45 am (UTC)Yeah, it was chill and a lot of fun. Just being surrounded by friends, you know?Nothing too crazy.
Of course not. But if anyone had hurt you... I bet that even Foggy would have been tempted. It's not like anyone can think straight in a time like that.
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Date: 2025-05-10 11:48 am (UTC)That sounds like the perfect night.
Maybe. It's complicated. If I haven't figured it out yet in twenty years, maybe it's not something that anyone ever will totally.
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Date: 2025-05-10 12:09 pm (UTC)Is that your type of perfect night?
Exactly. You shouldn't let it eat your brain up. I don't think its the kinda question with a right or wrong answer.
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Date: 2025-05-10 12:20 pm (UTC)A lowkey night with friends? Yeah. Is it not yours?
Probably. I don't do well with unsolved questions, as you can tell. I was taught that you have to still wrestle with them.
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Date: 2025-05-10 12:26 pm (UTC)Yeah, it probably is. I... I used to think that I really loved big and improvised plans. Like, not knowing where the night will take you and oops, we just woke up in Mexico. But now? I think it's more the company thah the plans.
You clearly need to Hakuna your Matata, Matt.
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Date: 2025-05-10 12:48 pm (UTC)I can't entirely relate, but I understand what you mean, yeah. So how often did you end up in Mexico?
I am not going to ask what that entails.
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Date: 2025-05-10 12:52 pm (UTC)I haven't yet. I know, shocked. But it's more of an inside joke with my friends from college.
Don't tell me you haven't seen The Lion King!
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Date: 2025-05-10 01:28 pm (UTC)I am a little surprised, yeah. Have any of your friends done it?
I've seen it, I'm just trying to picture what that is supposed to look like in this context. I don't think I could adopt a problem-free philosophy.
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Date: 2025-05-10 01:39 pm (UTC)A couple did. They even brought back sombreros and learned some real bad spanish.
I wouldn't go full into it, because extremes always suck. Maybe something closer to the whole Alcoholics Anonymous saying? The 'give me strenght to accept the things I cannot change and courage to change the things I can' deal.
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Date: 2025-05-10 02:07 pm (UTC)Do you speak another language? I'm now curious.
It's a nice goal. I wonder if some people do reach it.
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Date: 2025-05-10 02:36 pm (UTC)Un peu de français. And some español también.
The dad of one of my friends kept saying that and it always stuck with me. I only understood why once I grew up and in a way, I find it even more meaningful now. [She pauses.] But yeah, not sure if I have that kinda strenght.
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Date: 2025-05-10 02:52 pm (UTC)Not bad, not bad.
I think for me it's that I'm too stubborn to want to embrace that wisdom. I don't want to think there are problems I can't solve.
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Date: 2025-05-10 03:31 pm (UTC)Thanks. I'll bow next time I see you. But, what about you?
See? That's the thing. Sometimes a girl just needs a good rant and you guys jump straight into trying to find a solution. [Hey, she can try and joke too to light up the mood.]
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Date: 2025-05-10 03:41 pm (UTC)I'm fluent in Spanish and German, conversational in French, and know a bit of Russian. To be fair, languages come fairly easily for me.
I am entirely that person who had to learn to ask 'do you want me to listen or offer solutions' in those moments.
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Date: 2025-05-10 03:50 pm (UTC)... [Suddenly, at the other side of the line, Kate's jaw dropped.] You're shitting me. Really?? Don't tell me you also beat me to sign language, because I'd believe that coming from you.
At least you're aware. That's way more than what most dudes can proudly say.
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Date: 2025-05-10 04:00 pm (UTC)I did not beat you to sign language, if you feel compelled to rush and learn it first. I vaguely remember the finger movements to sign my first name, and how to sign 'agree' and 'disagree' but that's about it.
I've had it pointed out to me. Not just by women, either. Foggy would tell me that he just wanted me to agree something sucks sometimes.
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Date: 2025-05-10 04:11 pm (UTC)I learned a couple of things with Clint and, even if he says he's fine with his hearing aid? He's not. That thing is not always reliable in the middle of a fight.
See? Foggy was totally the GOAT!
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