She doesn't really show it off like you do. Wait, there's service at jail?
Well, not intentionally or in any way. You know when someone feels so awkward and it feeds the energy in the room. I was super consious of him.
... Dammit.
... [Well, she tried. She tried to be a good friend, right? If Matt doesn't wanna try or talk about it, then at least she did her good friend deed of the day.] You keep bringing shame into this city when you talk shit like that, Matthew.
I was about to say I don't show it off. Then I remembered the Devil suit. Not all but most state and federal prisons have a chaplain or religious education director on the premises who offers some sort of program. It largely depends on funding and the administration's viewpoint on its value.
Yeah. You end up being awkward because you don't want to make the other person more awkward.
That, you carry your cross with you, you go to mass all the time. And then there's the devil suit, yep. [She listens, kinda impressed. Also now feeling a little guilty over how little she knows of the institution where she's sent her own mother.] Ah, well... Not sure if she'd use it. But I'm glad she has the option.
Yeah, that's it. Thank you! [A beat.] Besides, I'm not even sure what was going on there. For all I know he was texting some girl he likes or whatever.
If you keep adding things to it that is no longer a bagel. Stop lying to yourself, Matt.
Oh. Yeah. I guess you have seen the cross now. [He often wears it as a necklace under his shirts. She has seen him without a shirt on when he wore the robe after his clothing was ruined by the sewers.] I don't go to mass all the time. Just once a week.
Maybe. Or he has a crush on you. Unless you have a sibling dynamic with him, in which case, please ignore that option.
It's a superior bagel. A bagel which has been enlightened. The next step in bagel evolution.
It's just a part of who I am, I don't feel the need for it to be displayed as more. I also don't wear a Kiss Me, I'm Irish shirt, either. Doesn't mean I'm not Irish, I just don't feel the need to advertise it.
Or that, sure.
It's the same dish. Only more intricate and nuanced.
You're not big on piercings or tattoos, Matt? [She considers this for a moment.] Can you feel the designs on a person's skin?
Yeah, he did. The Christmas when we met... I caught him trying to talk with Nate on the phone even though he couldn't hear a thing. It kinda really hit me then, you know? What Clint was sacrificing. I mean, danger aside. He just wanted to spend time with his family but he was here in New York trying to solve that mess.
I can feel them, and I don't mind them on other people, they just don't do anything for me to put them on myself. I can't see them. I can feel them, sure, but that's not quite the same thing. It's okay to acknowledge that my way of seeing and experiencing the world isn't how others do it. In some ways that means I can experience things you can't. In other ways it means you can experience things I can't. And again, I'm not offended. I'm just overtired so I'm overexplaining.
Does he miss it? Solving messes.
I like spice. I just don't like an overwhelming amount of it.
Overexplaining is okay as long as you don't get sick of me? [Kate poited out with a hopefully tone on her voice.] I like knowing how you experience things and it's so crazy that you can even feel pictures. [Another reason why Matt Murdock is incredibly impressive.] But I was thinking... You know how people say that having piercings in certain areas of the body enhances how the touch feels for them? It reminded me of you.
[Is it like that for him as well?]
He probably does, as much as he is tired and keeps claiming he wants to spend the rest of his life doing farm stuff.
And here I was about to tell Kirsten you were up for the hot chip challenge for the firm's social media... [She clicks her tongue.]
I'm not sick of you. I've just been told by other people that I ramble when I'm tired. I'm not even trying to argue, just trying to make sure my point is clear. I've tried to stop myself and recognize when I'm doing it since then. ... I've never thought about the rest of what you said, but there might be some truth to it. A more sensitive touch that you can't ignore is more like what I experience. Just everywhere all the time.
... I'm an asshole, Kate. I don't know if I could give it up for anyone. [He clearly couldn't for Foggy. Would Foggy want him to now though, in a state where Fisk is in charge? What about if he had a kid? Jack Murdock died for his morals. Matt respects that. It also left him alone at 9 in the world.]
Ha. Kirsten has a roasted corn recipe that involves hot chips as part of the coating. Well, her aunt does. I remind her that it's not hers, it's her aunt's. But she'd do the challenge with you. She drinks chilis for breakfast. My stomach can't.
I like rambly you when you're tired. Such a lawyer. [She teases him a little, even though the warmth there is undenieable. Matt says some of the best shit when he is tired.] That would absolutely kill you, wouldn't it? Like, a villain captures you and pierces your nipples? Ouch. And let's not even think about the other places that people get pierced. That even freaks me out.
[Even though Matt wasn't close enough to sense it, Kate still shook her head.] You wouldn't call Captain America an asshole for it, would you? People follow their call and this is yours. [Hopefully it really is Kate's as well.]
For real? I was just shitting with you. [Again.] But I would actually love to try that. I swear, it's like every time that Kirsten enters the conversation I learn a new amazing thing about her.
Only you would come up with the Nipple Bandit. If that becomes a thing, I'm blaming you.
... no. I have a lot of respect for Captain America. Resisting the law when it's unjust? That's part of everyone's civic duty, but some are in a better position to follow through on it than others.
[Matt has SO MUCH respect for Cap. Both Caps. He's not a fanboy like Kate in general, but he will 100% geek out on Steve and Sam. He would follow their ideology of resist as a form of civic engagement and has found it inspirational.]
Kirsten is beyond amazing. It's not my story to tell, but you should hear from her about her life story sometime. Plus she has a way of listening that few do. She hears what most don't. ... she's given me more chances than I deserve. If I'm ever not around? She's your contact.
For all we know there might be a Dominatrix Delinquent out there. I don't know, you say this now, but I bet your Catholic guilt thing might enjoy it, you pervert. [So, maybe that's taking it a little far. But teasing Matt is her favorite sport.]
Yeah, well, it might be his civic duty, but you follow yours. So don't ever call yourself an asshole again. That's my duty.
[As if Matt will ever stop beating himself or really need Kate or a dominatrix to deliver the blows. It doesn't matter. She might be there to call him an asshole when needed, but Kate will also take it upon herself to remind him of how wonderful he actually is.]
She really helped you when you -- When the firm closed. Like, really stepped up for you.
Don't worry, I don't feel insulted. [She snorts, amused by how careful he is about people's feelings. It's sweet. There should be more people like him in the world.] I'm always tempted but worry I'll get bored of it. Like, an arrow is super obvious, isn't it?
Maybe. [She considers things for a moment.] Do you think that people that do this can actually have relationships or a family? [It comes out before she even thinks about it. About what it might imply, considering his own relationship seems to be hanging from a thread.]
People like you guys are so important. Proving that you care and are not at it for the money.
It's a bit obvious, but from what little I know of tattoos, I think it's more what it means to you? An idea might be old, but an artist can make it new. It's more what you want on your body forever. I say this, only from having talks with clients to get them comfortable with me but also genuinely finding their perspective interesting.
[There is a long moment of silence. Matt wants this for Kate. For himself. To have it all. His history, though? He respects Kate too much to lie to her.] I don't know anyone who manages both. Well. Minus Danny and Colleen, who are both doing the same thing.
Danny's a goddamn unicorn who punched a dragon in the heart while living in Brigadoon, though.
Yeah, but an archer with an arrow. A bit too on the nose for my taste. [She does get what he means, though. If it really matters to you, deep down, what's the problem?] Not sure I have the best relationship with commitment to have something on my body for the rest of my life.
[There's a sincere relief as Matt only remains quiet for a moment. As he doesn't evade the question or sounds annoyed.] Yeah, Clint and Laura too. It's probably easier if you two are in the business, I guess. [No lies or hiding. Not that anyone can blame Matt for his silence during this relationship. He was not Daredevil anymore when he started dating Heather. How do you bring that into conversation anyway?]
Yeah, but... Sitting on your ass and making donations is not the same thing as what you guys do.
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Do you really think I would be so mean I'd embarrass the poor kid?
... Good point.
Still, maybe planning it together could help? You know, having something to look forward to.
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No, I don't think you would. At least not intentionally.
Lawyer.
Are you just trying to get me out of your city, Kate? Is this because I keep insisting that gourmet bagels are a thing?
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Well, not intentionally or in any way. You know when someone feels so awkward and it feeds the energy in the room. I was super consious of him.
... Dammit.
... [Well, she tried. She tried to be a good friend, right? If Matt doesn't wanna try or talk about it, then at least she did her good friend deed of the day.] You keep bringing shame into this city when you talk shit like that, Matthew.
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Yeah. You end up being awkward because you don't want to make the other person more awkward.
I feel no guilt over something that good.
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Yeah, that's it. Thank you! [A beat.] Besides, I'm not even sure what was going on there. For all I know he was texting some girl he likes or whatever.
If you keep adding things to it that is no longer a bagel. Stop lying to yourself, Matt.
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Maybe. Or he has a crush on you. Unless you have a sibling dynamic with him, in which case, please ignore that option.
It's a superior bagel. A bagel which has been enlightened. The next step in bagel evolution.
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... I barely know Coop and he barely speaks to me. So, unless he sees me as a big sis...
It's like stacking a shitton of things on a bruschetta. It's not a brushchetta anymore, Matt.
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Then he might have a crush.
It's an elevated bruschetta, I'm glad you're following.
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Or he might just be full of hormones.
Elevated my ass. You're making a whole different dish.
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Or that, sure.
It's the same dish. Only more intricate and nuanced.
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Either way, it's cute. And I don't wanna make him uncomfortable.
And you have the nerve to criticize my burgers.
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I'm sure you don't.
Those burgers aren't balanced on the palate.
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It's so cute to see all three of the kids, though. Clint and Laure are really great parents.
Your palate is not balanced!
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They seem like a nice family. Clint probably did the right thing by them with retiring.
Balanced and nuanced.
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Yeah, he did. The Christmas when we met... I caught him trying to talk with Nate on the phone even though he couldn't hear a thing. It kinda really hit me then, you know? What Clint was sacrificing. I mean, danger aside. He just wanted to spend time with his family but he was here in New York trying to solve that mess.
Says the man who can barely take spice.
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Does he miss it? Solving messes.
I like spice. I just don't like an overwhelming amount of it.
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[Is it like that for him as well?]
He probably does, as much as he is tired and keeps claiming he wants to spend the rest of his life doing farm stuff.
And here I was about to tell Kirsten you were up for the hot chip challenge for the firm's social media... [She clicks her tongue.]
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... I'm an asshole, Kate. I don't know if I could give it up for anyone. [He clearly couldn't for Foggy. Would Foggy want him to now though, in a state where Fisk is in charge? What about if he had a kid? Jack Murdock died for his morals. Matt respects that. It also left him alone at 9 in the world.]
Ha. Kirsten has a roasted corn recipe that involves hot chips as part of the coating. Well, her aunt does. I remind her that it's not hers, it's her aunt's. But she'd do the challenge with you. She drinks chilis for breakfast. My stomach can't.
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[Even though Matt wasn't close enough to sense it, Kate still shook her head.] You wouldn't call Captain America an asshole for it, would you? People follow their call and this is yours. [Hopefully it really is Kate's as well.]
For real? I was just shitting with you. [Again.] But I would actually love to try that. I swear, it's like every time that Kirsten enters the conversation I learn a new amazing thing about her.
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... no. I have a lot of respect for Captain America. Resisting the law when it's unjust? That's part of everyone's civic duty, but some are in a better position to follow through on it than others.
[Matt has SO MUCH respect for Cap. Both Caps. He's not a fanboy like Kate in general, but he will 100% geek out on Steve and Sam. He would follow their ideology of resist as a form of civic engagement and has found it inspirational.]
Kirsten is beyond amazing. It's not my story to tell, but you should hear from her about her life story sometime. Plus she has a way of listening that few do. She hears what most don't. ... she's given me more chances than I deserve. If I'm ever not around? She's your contact.
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Yeah, well, it might be his civic duty, but you follow yours. So don't ever call yourself an asshole again. That's my duty.
[As if Matt will ever stop beating himself or really need Kate or a dominatrix to deliver the blows. It doesn't matter. She might be there to call him an asshole when needed, but Kate will also take it upon herself to remind him of how wonderful he actually is.]
She really helped you when you -- When the firm closed. Like, really stepped up for you.
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Just that I get Clint's view. On why he left. Might be an asshole to his family, by following his duty.
She did. She believes in the mission. Wouldn't be taking a pay cut otherwise.
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Maybe. [She considers things for a moment.] Do you think that people that do this can actually have relationships or a family? [It comes out before she even thinks about it. About what it might imply, considering his own relationship seems to be hanging from a thread.]
People like you guys are so important. Proving that you care and are not at it for the money.
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[There is a long moment of silence. Matt wants this for Kate. For himself. To have it all. His history, though? He respects Kate too much to lie to her.] I don't know anyone who manages both. Well. Minus Danny and Colleen, who are both doing the same thing.
Danny's a goddamn unicorn who punched a dragon in the heart while living in Brigadoon, though.
[No, Matt's not letting him forget that shit.]
You're important, too. You care and have money.
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[There's a sincere relief as Matt only remains quiet for a moment. As he doesn't evade the question or sounds annoyed.] Yeah, Clint and Laura too. It's probably easier if you two are in the business, I guess. [No lies or hiding. Not that anyone can blame Matt for his silence during this relationship. He was not Daredevil anymore when he started dating Heather. How do you bring that into conversation anyway?]
Yeah, but... Sitting on your ass and making donations is not the same thing as what you guys do.
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